At the time I’m writing this, I’m exactly 25 days away from turning 25.
It’s a strange milestone. I’m about to be a year older—but I wouldn’t necessarily say I’m any wiser.

Lately, I’ve been crashing out and making half-hearted attempts to plan for the year ahead without ever stopping to ask myself what I actually want.

From the outside prospective. I should be happy and content because I have a stable job. I have a degree in engineering. I am saving for retirement and putting money away for a rainy day. I have hobbies. I paint, enjoy cooking, going to spin class and reading. But I dont feel alive. I dont think I truly have ever felt alive.

I want to feel alive.
Not just okay, not just productive—alive.
So this is where I begin.
If you’ve ever felt this way too, I invite you to join me on this journey—to explore what it means to feel alive, to go beyond the surface, and to figure it out together.